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How Things Will Turn Out

I have just signed up for a literary festival called When Words Collide which will take run for three days in August. Because I have volunteered to help with registration, I will receive free admission to the event. I am happy to volunteer and since the conference was full, it is the only way I am able to attend this years event. This will be my first foray into the world of fiction writing and I am excited to find out what I will learn. There are many speakers and workshops to choose from so I will need to sit down soon and make some plans.

I have enjoyed painting over the last 20 years and in the last year I have become interested in writing and would like to find out more about this creative outlet before I dismiss it outright as an option for me. Julia Cameron has long promoted morning pages as a pathway to creativity. She calls them “brain drains” and suggests that they serve to get rid of our “junk” emotions and thoughts in order to free our minds for more productive work. I did morning pages for quite awhile until I discovered that I was spending the small amount of time I had for creativity doing morning pages rather than painting. So I stopped doing them and did a lot more painting.

This isn’t to say that morning pages don’t work. Cameron is a writer so perhaps they work differently for writers than for painters. Indeed Gerald Weinberg in his book, “Weinberg on Writing” says “One way for smart people to be happy is to express themselves, to put out in the world the vast melange of thoughts and feelings whirling in their heads.”

I find myself with that vast melange of thoughts and feelings whirling in my head and don’t always know what to do about it. Yes, painting helps to quiet my mind and center it on the challenges at hand, that is, to get into the flow which is itself a path to happiness. But I sense that writing would provide a deeper vessel through which to process all those thoughts and feelings.

At the same time I am contemplating a change in creative direction, life has become more and more complicated as our IT company goes through growing pains and we start work on a long awaited cottage. There is not enough time to do it all and so I question the wisdom of adding on to my already full life a creative endeavor that will require another steep learning curve.

It helps a great deal that I have moved towards letting go of the outcome, at least when it comes to my creative expressions. I recognize that all artists have seasons of wonderful productivity and other times that can feel like a deep black hole. Again from Weinberg, “Success is a feeling not an event. With any feeling, it comes and goes and so at times I feel like I am succeeding and at times I feel like I am failing. All are part of the whole-story which is not finished yet.”

I love the quote from the movie, The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel when the young hotel owner assures his guests, “It will all work out in the end. If it hasn’t worked out, it isn’t the end yet.”

Perhaps right now it is difficult to see the pathway let alone know where it is going. The important thing is to keep moving forward, whether with giant leaps or baby steps, toward how things will turn out.

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